I've had a lot of bad during my life time , a lot of heart ache, a lot of deaths, a lot of loss....people see that as a bad thing and to an extent they are right, it certainly isn't positive , its not fun but its not all bad and negative either. Because of what I have been through in my life I have become the person who I am today, I am strong, I know that I am strong, I don't wonder, I don't think I am, I don't suppose, I KNOW I am. I am extremely compassionate because of the things I've been through and I've turned the things I've been through into opportunities to help other people. Rather than hide the things in the my life that aren't so pretty I have made myself an open book , I am open to questions, I am open to discussion and sharing my experiences so that others who are going through something similar right now can look at me and see that it is possible to come out on the other side. Yes you come out with scars but wear them proudly because scars aren't something to be ashamed of, scars show that you have gone through something tough and you survived, you won. One thing that I have learned is that every "bad" situation I have been through in my life does have a positive, whether its life or death bad or just "this sucks" kind of bad. I think people are afraid to look for the positive especially in life or death bad situations because they think its strange to find something positive in something so terrible. Let me stress that just because you find something positive in a situation doesn't mean that its a positive situation or that you are happy the situation is happening.
Here are some examples of what I mean
My immediate family member has a terminal illness with absolutely no hope of survival. Probably the worst situation I've ever been in in my whole life, the most devastating for sure. But yes there IS a silver lining. Many people never get a chance to say the things they want to say before they lose the one they love. So many times its unexpected. But in this situation we have a chance to say everything we need to, we are able to make the time to spend together, this person is able to make messages for each person to have after he/she is gone. I am also stepping back and looking at my own life, reevaluating how I want to live it. The positives certainly don't outweigh the negatives and I wish there was something I could do to make this situation go away but I can't, so I will learn from it what I can and make the best I can with what I have left with this person.
Having to shop at the "big girl" store. Thanks to prednisone, chronic illness and crappy eating I've gained A LOT of weight, I'm a size 18 now so off to Lane Bryant I go.....but there is a good side to it, Lane Bryant carries sizes a lot bigger than mine so usually I'm the skinniest girl in the joint and feel like a freaking super model lol.
On eating nearly the whole thing of ice cream last night....ugh...I could have gotten down on myself about how I will never lose weight if I keep it up, how I have no will power and blah blah blah but I didn't.....I said well at least I didn't eat it all, almost all but not all of it, a couple weeks ago there wouldn't have been any left....and then I got on with my day.
Its not easy to look at the positives, not easy at all but the more we do look at the positives the more we are training ourselves to automatically look at the positives.
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